Skillfulmeans 11 months old, and 9 months of writing
It is kind of strange. It is almost a year later and I’m sitting on my deck. It was almost a year ago that I started this blog.
It began one spring…
It began one spring, the choices that were shown to me weren’t really what I wanted to do, but they started to make sense. Some times life just seems to make those choices for you, and like a friend said to me once, when the wind takes your sails it is time to go sailing. I kind of did.
As I sit here at my table looking over at the smoke coming from my neighbors burn pile, I have much to remember. It has been a busy time.
A friend to remind me…
It is kind of strange to me, this blog. This bit of writing on a web page is one of the few things left in the continuum since I had taken my work break about 11 or so months ago. It was meant as many things, but I don’t think I really meant it as a diary. One could suppose that all things written in a linear fashion can turn out to be a diary.
It is almost a year, and what I have not written about almost tells me more than what I have written about. Curious huh?
So Friday night, one of my Second Life buddies got on line with me and told me a story. It was really strange because he is a friend I have grown comfortable in reading to on Monday nights, it was so very different being on the other side of the reading.
A small bottle of whiskey closed the distance between coasts as we all shared a miracle of modern technology. (No, Stevie… I’m perfectly sober on Monday and Tuesday nights… hahahha… and now you know the difference!)
Shouldn’t be a life time…
I am sure that if you find yourself reading this blog, you probably know of the ability that the Internet allows for creating friendships from afar. Well, I’m sure only maybe half of you know how the Internet can make family from afar. After three years of the strangest tales of the everyday, you bet you just want to get together with your friends and just have a good ole drink. So we did. My friend then decided to read me a story that I wrote almost 11 months ago. It was a story that now seems written a life time ago.
Maybe going back to work wasn’t the best idea…
It was very interesting hearing my own writing. Very strange. As I moved my way from tears to boughts of screaming laughter, my mind switched between the pain that I was relating to in the story, and then the shock of that I would write of such things. Honestly, I couldn’t believe my honesty.
My silly friend read me this story: http://skillfulmeans.lotusbell.com/2008/06/22/wtg-a-masochistic-approach-my-left-boob-part-i/
I don’t know if he really read the whole thing to me, but I’m pretty sure he did. I am perusing it now and can hear his voice reading all the various parts. As I think back to Friday night, he read the whole story without a giggle. Me? My other half had to come by a few times to see if everything was ok. I think at one point I was rolling around on my couch in stitches. I’m surprised I could keep my earphones on.
When I started writing this blog, it was a very difficult time for me. The episode that my friend read to me about my breast cancer scare was not just something that could easily come out of me. It is sad to say that I was a bit more fearless then than I feel these days. Perhaps that is part of the difference that I am finding in my writing as of late.
I am beginning to understand that true giving is done without fear. Giving happens “just because.”
Maybe going back to work wasn’t the best idea for me, at least writing wise.
This months retrospective…
Maybe I won’t do my normal monthly retrospective. Although, now that I think about it I’m a little curious… ok, I’ll peek. Here is the quick and dirty cut and paste:
10. A song to describe a moment: Mona Lisa a
9. Visual Meditations – Browns and th
8. Dharma V.
7. Emptiness, Part Deux (by Danaeah Balling
6. About
5. I needed a laugh … and this does it for
4. WTG: Non-Random Acts of Kindness – Mixed
2. SL Buddhism Discussion Group – Topic Sch
1. The Great Search for A Cool Poster
Let’s see if we take out the Dharma stuff and the reading group stuff.. .that will give us three more:
11. You Can’t Tuna Fish: Confessions of an
12. Try Out Social Bookmarking – Web 2.0 and
13. My Second Toondoo
It always makes me happy to see some WTG articles make it to the top ten each month.
Things that I don’t write about?
I would love to write about things that I don’t usually write about, but then again, those are those things that are not usually the most positive of topics. What makes writing about something horribly threatening like a breast cancer scare different enough to write about, and those other things that happen in my life so different? I guess perhaps that might be something I may consider in the next few days. Then maybe I will try my hand at fiction again…
Thanks Pal…
Before I took up working again, I had mentioned to my friends that if things got stressful enough that I was no longer doing the things I want to do, let me know because I will take heed and consider my options. I really did love to share with my friends everyday in this blog, so much so that I had made a small job of it. But the stress has begun to rise enough that I morn the more fearless days of writing on this blog, which gives me a little pause.
I do have some time off “for me” scheduled soon which should right me a bit. In the mean time, maybe I will be looking back and see if I can find some of my favorite things to write on the blog, and why. Maybe I will also think about those things that I haven’t written about.
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